Page Title

ABSENCE

Lyrics

Beautiful Devastation

Im cut so deep / you can see right through me / my blood heavy with sorrow / Ill fuckin cut through the heart of the devil / Run past the empty soul and laugh / Point at the one who falls first / Its fuckin deniable / because this beautiful Devastation is so reliable/

Go so far down / I DON'T WANT THIS / make your ears bleed /

AND IF I RESIST? / Ill break your mind / STOP FUCKING ME OVER /

Im so fuckin tired / SO GET UP!

Im addictied to pain / she swallows virus's so big her jaw snaps like a toothpick / and i nail my hand's to her sides and tug / Im so fuckin tired of being draged down / She became my pins and needles / so she will take an exacto and cut out her darkness /

Underwater Painkillers

I feel so tired/ life isnt the same/ so cold everynight/ ive lost my blanket/ along with my soul/ so i take these pills/ and turn the knob/ so I can take my underwater pain killers/I cant stand myself/ either can the world/ so ill do you all a favor/ and go under/ away from this pain/ they told me I drive people away/ so fine/ Ill just go away/ sit in a bath and drown myself/ Underwater painkillers/ so fuck all of you/ except for the ones who cared/ the ones who will drag my body from the bathroom/ my stare fixed on the celing/ im just not good enough/ they broke my heart and then my legs/ my wings/ they broke me/ now im just gonna leave/but then you came/ and all my pain wnet away/ and now im free again/ so hold me as a cry/ but your tears are to delicate/ so dont sob over the pain i feel/ i love you for that so drag my body to the bed/ and let me sleep/

R.I.P self confidence

Something’s aren’t perfect

It explains itself/In 500 different ways

she’s entered hell/Its always rain’s on her special day

Sadness swarms the mind of a girl who misses you

I’ve got one thing wrong with me

Im not perfect/But Im not great

She’s always crying/and Im always lying

so you share your feelings with random people/I guess its what I get for being evil

I explain myself /In 500 different ways/I must be the storm

That Rains on her special day/Holding you from the front

Cause you’ve been loved by the back

unknown places/for unknown faces

and all of it goes down the drain

blood on my door/here comes the pain

Ill cut myself / To see if im awake / blood on my door

every drop is a mistake/such a red door now

she left me for him/shes going away/shes going away

shes going away/For now

Fucikng Graceful

"So he loves you?"

SOME FUCKIN BREAK/ I FEEL LIKE CUTTING OUT MY FUCKING EYES/ALL HE WANTS TO DO IS FUCK YOU AND THATS SOMETHING I CONFESS/ I CONFESS THAT I AM GUILTY OF LOVE/ SO DONT FUCKIN TELL ME YOU FUCKIN TRAMP/ DONT YOU GET IT/ IM BROKEN/ SO FUCK YOU/ AND ILL EAT YOUR HEART OUT/ CAUSE YOUR SOME KIND OF NIGHTMARE/ SO STOP FUCKIN HAUNTING ME/ JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP WHILE I TALK/ WHO THE FUCK DO YOU TAKE ME FOR/SOME WIPPED MAN WITH NO SOUL/ I HAVE FUCKING FEELINGS YOU BITCH/ SO IM GONNA HIDE UNDER MY ROCK/

I DID FUCKIN LOVE YOU/ BUT YOU MADE ME A KILLER/ DROWN MY SORROWS WITH

MYSELF/ SO FUCK YOU FOREVER/ IM SO FUCKIN TIRED OF BEING HERE/

FUCK THIS WORLD/ FUCK YOU/ IM SO HURT/ SO BLEED TO DEATH WHEN YOU SLIT YOUR WRISTS/ YOU FUCKIN BLOODSUCKER/ GOD DAMN IT IM SO FUCKIN ANGRY/ WHERE THE FUCK IS DEATH WHEN I NEED IT THE MOST/ SO ILL FUCKIN KILL HIM THEN RIP OUT HIS EYES AND OUT THEM IN YOUR BED / Then love myself and only me...... and one more thing.....

IF I EVER SEE HIM ILL BREAK HIS FUCKING NECK AND MAKE HIM BREATH FIRE ON HIS OWN LIFE/ILL DESTROY HIM

so sorry for lieing.....

Enemys and Flowers

come with me / to a world of such graceful peace / so i can touch your face with such kindess and hold you /
keep you safe from the world we have come to know / Its me and you against this world of angry hearts and broken souls/
so i woulnt leave you alone here/ take my hand beautiful and lets run as fast as we can/ and if you trip dont think twice
about me leaving you / Ill be lifting you to your feet and have enogh time to dust you off/
Im here forever so when your tear's drop Ill cach them and when your smiles broken I quickly grab my tool kit /
Im so in love with you / when your hope's is gone Ill be there to raise them up / so don't fear because you have enemys
but you also have flowers/

Ill go with you / to that world of such graceful peace / So i can kiss your pain away and
hold you up when you feel like your going down / It will always be you and me against the
world we have come to know / when Im down you bring me those flowers and chase away my
enemy's/ You don't have to cach my tear's / When Im with you I dont cry / you burrie my worrie
and hold me up / These kisses are like glue they hold me together even when i have already
fallen apart/ So wrap your arm's around me and shield me from my enemys and let in the flowers

Ill never break again / my soul is now concrete but soft enough
        for your kisses/ and for you to plant flower's and when summer come's
        we can have what we've been waiting for/you can smile as much as you want
        Your so beautiful to me and One more thing I love you

Some people dream of what I have so keep dreaming/when you go the light's go out and all the
flashlights are dead / no candle's are to be found / but when you return i can see again /
I leave my dorr's unlocked and my windows open waiting for you to come in and lay with me /
So when I wake up on a ranny day the sun is still shining in my room/ I want to wake up everyday
knowing that I can make you smile/because when you don't I know I have failed/ So keep the door
closed your letting the light out/your laugh is like my painkiller and you voice is like the
answer to my biggest issue / and your eye's are like sign's of freedom/ so dont ever change on me

         You have no idea how many times you have suprized me/ I still
Can't belive I found someone so perfect/ I know god is real
   now because they ebauty he made/ and i have it right in my life
         So forget your enemys and accept these flowers

I dream about you / I can't sleep without you / so dont get up
unless you have to/

Absence

~Underwater Painkillers~

Inside

Open your heart / Ill kiss away your pain / and this love seem's so sour but still sweet / just as she parted my fears / and walked in wearing my sorrow and lies /

I ran away from myself / a battle never finished / this ciggerate doesnt

help / my problems are diminsihed / I hate myself / the way i lie / but

Still she let me inside /

Im so tired of being here / I lost it all / some fuckin love / how could you do that to me / now blood is all over my door / and Im crying out / hands cut / eyes shut / and i lied my face off

GOD HELP ME / GOD HELP ME / GOD HELP ME / GOD HELP ME / GOD HELP ME / GOD HELP ME / GOD HELP ME /

Self Prespective

"You always keep your grudges so close to your heart and rip out my eyes with your words of wisdom..."

I can't keep looking at myself / talking to myself / and living on like this / but change is so far way and these lies / they dont help at all so ill kill the demon inside /I just can't stand myself when it comes to being alone

My past always caches up to me / and the furtue holds so much

More but for now I think Ill take a walk on the edge of freedom /

From becoming so helpless / and wanting to kill myself

You told em i drive people away / when only people can drive themselves / I always walk away witha new scar on my back / and a new memorie of you / so stop calling me / because its so fucking unbearable

Forget your past

Uncover your dreams

Create a world

Kill the demon inside

You will survive

Only you can make it

Under all this pressure

so.... FUCK YOU!!!

Set us free

I feel so much pain / and my mind is stuck / stuck on the fact that you are gone / so i set us free / ill be the one to walk away and not come back / you told me i drive people away / thanks for the confidence /

      im so fuckin angry at myself / these suicide
      atempts get old / god torchers me / i just wanted
       us / and i couldnt have it /

you told me you felt tied down / so go your free / free from me and my pain / its pretty cold out here though / so fuckin cold now / and ill still think about you / but when i do ill be gone

just go away / thanks for the confidence / goodbye

Unwanted

Someday/youll carry my coffin to my home forever/cause i just dont feel ok anymore so i dont want to cry / i dont want to feel sick anymore/ I know they love me but it's not enough to heal my pain/ its no ones fault but mine/ I avoid your pictures and all reminders of you/ they make be break in two/ i keep bleeding and it woulnt stop/ i dont want to live so god/ keep me close to your heart/ ILl bleed away/ ill make my day so cold/ i cant see myself in the mirror/ so kill me/so kill me/so kill me/ and i will walk with you./to my place in the sky/to my world of forever sleeping/ to the time of peace/ away from here ill be/ im so sick / tired of feeling so unwanted/ so unwanted to me/ so take away my pain/ and cure my virus/ it spreads so fast/ so hold me now/ so hold me forever im no one/ anymore

MACHINE GUN KISSES Sung by David Bailey and Megan Maloney

coming soon....

Mark these Words and Hold Back Your Tears

"I think im dieing inside and you just keep sabing me no matter how many time I tell you im sorry so put down the rusty screwdriver and FUCKIN LOVE ME OR ILL SLIT YOUR THROAT!!!!!!"

I cant stand the way you move / Just wait until I come back from the grave/ Ill rip your life right from your cold hands / no more suicide attempts and fuckin lies / so go away/death will consume us all/ mark these fuckin words and hold your tears in please/ AND WHEN I GET BACK ILL FUCKIN KILL HIM / HE WILL BE DEAD AND YOU WILL BE CRYING / IM SORRY I HURT YOU /

"I didnt know that you loved her that much"

YOUR NOT COMING HOME TODAY / I WOULNT LET YOU IN

AND ILL NEVER LET YOU GET BACK INSIDE ME / SO GET

THE FUCK HOME NOW /

ILL HELD YOUR HAND / AND YOU SPIT IN MY FACE SO FUCK YOU!!!!!!

EXACTO SOLUTION

coming soon....

Defected Love From 1000 Chambers

"One has found love in the heart of a defected soilder, A love so full it could hold the hearts of man and destroy us all. Pain will be brought from the 1000 Chambers of death and our souls will turn against us and our pain will be or way of life and when she comes I will open the door and great her with 9mm kisses and paint the walls with red. I will come again. I will come again. I will come again. I WILL COME AGAIN. I WILL COME AGAIN. SO FUCK ALL OF YOU!"

TO THOSE WHO CAUSE PAIN AND SUFFERING/SHE RIPPED OUT MY HEART AND USED IT AS A SACRAFICE TO 1000 CHABERS OF DEATH/SO MUCH FUCKIN PAIN/I LOVE IT/YOU PRIDE THE LOVE FROM MY HANDS AND TOLD ME TO GO FUCK MYSELF/I WANT TO DIE/I WANT TO KILL MYSELF/I WANT TO OVERDOSE ON SLEEPING PILLS AND DROWN MYSELF/BECAUSE YOU MAKE ME HURT/I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH SO DIE LOVE DIE/YOU HAVE TAKEN IT ALL AWAY FROM ME/I WILL NEVER SMILE AGAIN/I HATE YOU/I HATE YOU/ I HATE YOU/I LLL LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SCREAM I HATE YOU/I CANT STAND MYSELF/ FUCK IT I HATE ALL THAT CAUSE PAIN/

IT BREAKS MY HEART TO LOOK AT WHAT ILL NEVER HAVE/ THE

LOVE AND RESPECT AND THE PAIN/ FUCK THE LOVE

COME HOME AND SLEEP/DEATH IS COMING/COME HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Autumn coming soon...

sOMEDAY

Im going to wake up someday / and Just forget about you / It may not make a difference to you but it will to me / So If you do love me hold on / Becuase Some Day I might be gone / But I really hurt you/

I REGRET NOT BEING / WHAT YOU INTENED ON SEEING / Its ok because some day / someday Ill be gone / and your troubles will be over / MY LUCK WAS NEVER BROUGHT BY A FOUR LEAF CLOVER / and as we speak you gorw angry with me/

It will be a dream / to not feel pain / because without you I drive myself insane/NO HEARTS ON THESE CARDS JUST SWORDS / HEADED STRAIGHT FOR ME / SO IF I PLAY MY CARDS RIGHT / I SHALL SEE ANOTHER DAY OF YOU / LETS GO HOME / LETS HOLD HANDS / ONE MORE TIME / LETS GET ON / BECAUSE SOME DAY I WILL BE GONE / AND YOU WILL CRY AND MAYBE MOURN / BUT FOR NOW YOU DONT EVEN BLINK JUST STARE / HE MUST BE GREAT / WELL THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR LOVEING SO MUCH

Bloodwork

I am forever young / stuck inside this world / insane to do the worst i protest but i wil confess / im so tired of waiting on you / and death bonds us together / so let me do your blood work / then ill set you free / This needle satisfies me / my wounds gratify me / i can live thrue everything / i can live threw any thing

Broken stories / lies told by death / cut your eyes out /

and walk with me / take you to outer heaven / leave you to die

My eyes burn / my teeth brake on contact with your skin / I peal you off my heart / like a worn down sticker / in the middle of march / im done for with love / stuck in myself / bleeding on you / i am fatal framed